We are two part-time academics. Ellen teaches in the English department and Jim in the IT program at George Mason University.
Dear Fanny,
Am reading Helen Fielding’s Bridget Jones’s Diary. Finding it very funny very often (even if, as Jim says, the basic joke is the same over and over again and the tone consequently much of a muchness). I think it satiric of the culture, not the girl, but as I like reinforcement have sent away for (bought [cannot you be frank?], bought on the Net) one of those skinny Continuum Contemporaries of ever-so-perceptive critical exegesis.
I am tempted to do likewise. Every day here list how many drinks I’ve had and how many pages of text by George Anne Bellamy I’ve typed and gotten onto the Net. The trouble is the last few days my drinking has gotten out of hand. Yes I keep (more or less) to my committment never to drink before 5, and find I can’t easily drink once supper is done (around 7:30 to 8). However, the truth is I can get in a helluva lotta wine in 3 hours. And I’ve not typed a thing by Bellamy. I’ve not even begun putting my paper on Anne Murray Halkett on the Net. Nor have I begun to transcribe and type up my notes on the 18th century conference.
So I’d have a large number where a small one would be more respectable and I could fool myself with, and I’d have no number at all where I should be accumulating text.
Thus to write in the Bridget Jones fashion is an attack on self.
Yet there is something to equating one’s day with literal doings one cares about—or should do. I also note that Caroline often sounds the Bridget Jones note, like her “Official Announcement”
“As of 10am local time, my name was officially returned to its former state.
Crazy Old Lady Witkowski jokes must immediately be retired upon reading this …”
Which makes her blog funny, a sarky riff on whatever.
For example, the other day she wrote about “A Prayer Ambush,” to which I responded and now rewrite in Bridget mode:
“I was prayer-ambushed between ages 9 and 10. Father and mother had moved to Queens, NYC, and sent me to local school. For the first few days innocently safe, but then Tuesday came.
Tuesday was the day Mrs Fuller read from the Bible. Why Tuesday?
Maybe she had read Jane Austen. (Bad Tuesdays in 5 out of 6 apparently finished novels, plus fragment, The Watsons.)
Suddenly all children’s heads were down and she was reading from the Bible. I looked around, astounded. I seemed to know that this was not supposed to happen. Church and state were separate, weren’t they? I did know this by this time and also knew (obscurely but consciously enough) this was an imposition. I was being forced to enact something foreign to me, and be a hypocrite—for after all as one of Caroline’s friends said, no one knows what you are thinking so it’s a class enactment of social conformity, in this case honoring, insisting on domination of supernatural religion.
What to do? She glared at me and gestured for me to put my head down. I don’t remember if I did or not. I might’ve but then again I might not. I do remember how alien I was made to feel, how strange.
Later that day I vomited in class and had to be taken home for an upset stomach. Later that month I had a white rash on one of my thighs that stayed for months.
Prayer ambushes can get to you.”
Is it useful to write Bridget Jones stuff.? Yes, if only to keep accounts and tell it like it is, removing all pious hypocrisies and self-delusions. So, yesterday malevolent god brought down machine as it was just then I was about to read through blogs on Austen movies. Jim: “Ah yes, He reaches down with Thumb at that one machine.”
Only then of course I’m also back to attacks on self.
The question is, would keeping count (actually taking down the numbers) make me drink less and type texts I want to type? No on the first and yes maybe on the second.
Chava
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Posted by: Ellen
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