And it was partly that, that he was more or less threatening the lives of everyone. And I did think just putting him in the Fridge and hoping that was actually enough to stop him was a very bad idea. All that I’ll say to the board was basically true. But not the whole truth. Because I don’t think all the reasons I give, even combined together, would have quite driven me to pull that trigger.
I could blame Lorelai for this, conceivably. If I hadn’t just had my mind hijacked, if I hadn’t against every bit of who I am been made to love and want and serve and fuck someone whom I hated even when she was in my arms, because she could only make me love her, she couldn’t make me not hate her, I might not have responded to what he had said. But that’s fresh in my mind, something I can’t stop thinking about.
Something he threatened to inflict on Skye. “She will die giving it to us.” I suppose if she was lucky they’d brainwash her completely, the way that rogue Asgardian in Germany and New York did to Barton and the scientist, so she wouldn’t quite go through what I did. But it doesn’t matter.
I’m prudent and smart enough a man to know there aren’t many things you’d do absolutely anything to stop. And if he’d just threatened to make Skye-or us all-face our deaths as ourselves, with our minds clear, of course I would’ve tried to prevent that, but I believe I would’ve done so within reasonable limits.
But the thought of Skye being destroyed like that, robbed of who she is, before they gave her the dignity to die? That I had to stop. Period. End of Story.